a love beyond words…

My life = NO LIFE

 

I really think my CM did this to my eye on purpose! It’s so ugly can! I don’t even dare to look down lo.

Our newly launch painting eyeliner (gel eyeliner). So we are suppose to be using it and she drew that on me. You know I was so shock when I look back into the mirror. I didn’t expect it will turn out to be that way although I already felt something was wrong when she practically colour my entire eye lid in TURQOISE! CAN YOU IMAGINE THE NUMBER OF STARES I RECEIVED?!! ):

 

 

 

Sigh, hate being a newcomer, kena bully like fuck.

 

 

1. ‘Can you move all the cartons down, I’ve got back problem can’t carry heavy stuffs’ (like real man!)

 

2. I’ve got to clean the entire tester bars alone!!

 

3. My shifts are like shit! This Thursday will be April FULL not April FOOL. I’ve got to go to work at 8AM for stock take, then to office for training from 11-7PM, then back to work till 9.30PM. INSANITY!!!

 

 

 

 

 

Barely slept for the whole of last night. Mainly because I was worrying that B would be worn out, not having proper and enough rest, despite staying OVERNIGHT AT THE OFFICE work is still not completed. This is really insane. He actually stayed there for the entire whole night rushing a project!

Is it worth it?

 

 

Kah Wai was really thoughtful to call B in the middle of the night yesterday to ask if he could render some help. Must be thinking you can strike lottery since this is the FIRST time I sing praises of you. HAHA! Seriously, even I appreciate and felt your sincerity. (:

 

 

I may be in no position to judge and I have nothing against the company, especially being in the H&T industry, I’ve seen many of some cases having to do OT without being asked. However, what I want to say is, your employees are the key to your success. Without them how can profits be rolling in? Employees loyalty is very important, because when the company treats each and every employee with due respect, equality and gives special incentives or even the slightest way like saying ‘THANK YOU’ boost and makes one to feel belonged. And thus, the no grumble when they have to out in extra effort, work longer hours if they have to etc. Think about it, is this the practice at your company? Maybe you’ve haven’t/never heard, that’s because you never asked.

 

 

I am not pin pointing at any company in specific but in general. If you happen to FEEL that this is the situation that you may be experiencing, give it some thought. I believe you were also once an employee by someone. Employees’ loyalty and belongingness is really important.

 

 

B, please don’t forget your meals. MISSES!

 

 

I TOTALLY REGRET WORKING AS A FULL TIME TO BE EXACT!!

I TOTALLY REGRET SIGNING THE BOND!!

I AM TOTALLY NOT MOTIVATED TO DO SALES!!

I AM TOTALLY WAITING FOR TIME TO PASS ASAP EVERYDAY!!

 

I totally need to go to bed now cause punctuality is so damn important!

 

1 minute late = $1

Don’t you all agree that after we work for a certain period of time at a particular place, there is a kind of authority you possess and an air when you speak to newcomers even though you are considered a newbie with only a few months of experience?

 

 

My colleagues are ok, still too early to judge. But my impression of them is that they seem pretty unfriendly and unwilling to teach which I’ve already expected.

 

I so wished I was posted to either Ochard Tangs or Taka, not because they are A counters (top in sales) but because I’ve got friends there. My most preferred would be Tangs, a least I will have a lot of lunch khakis. ): But not too bad la, I’m stationed at Isetan Scotts at least it’s in town, hopefully sales is not too bad here. But I overheard form my colleagues that the sales this month is like shit. Business is really bad man due to the economic crisis. Really stressed me out when I heard that, apart from the commission scheme since next month I will be bearing target.

 

 

I’m really starting to feel the stress. Or maybe I’m giving myself the unwanted stress. Because I expect a lot out of myself. No matter what I have to make sure I hit 80% of my target, any less than that the commission I’ll be getting is like shit. And they are so strict about lateness and MC. A little too complicated to explain but once you are on MC or late in that month, the incentive will be forfeited. I think I really need to work on this part man. B promise to morning call me everyday. HAHA!

 

 

So sway! My line got cut off yesterday! ): It’s really frustrating because hand phone has become a must-have item with you. Feel so uneasy without it, half the time I’m thinking who is trying to reach me but I’m unavailable.

 

 

 

HAHAHA! My new name is Renee. Sounds weird? But heck la, just for working use, because they totally can’t remember my name and keep pronouncing it wrongly!!! Example, they can even call me GRAN SAN = GRANDSON (sound alike) What the hell right!!!   

It’s my first day of work!

 

You know what, when I got up this morning at 7am, the first thing that came to my mind is, ‘I’m kinda regretting getting a full time job’ I mean look at the numerous things I will be missing out. Like now, I’m sulking over the fact that I can’t be going JB with the DOTS company this Thursday. I was so looking forward to it, even wanted to request to take off on that day, but so sway, gotta go BHG (Bugis) to relief. ):

 

 

By the way, I think I ought to make a trip down to Kino one of these days when I’m free and get my hands on a couple of hair styling magazines. I spent almost close to half an hour this morning trying to fix my hair into something stylish yet neat. In the end, I really had no idea what I can do, I just tie everything up into a pony tail and left my house hurriedly. Was the last to reach by a couple of minutes late because I was searching high and low for my IC. Luckily it’s with precious. PHEW!

 

The first hour was pretty boring and dry. Introduction about the company yadaa yadaa. Next part of the day was a killer! Thank goodness I’m not alone. Met this really petite girl, Sophie. She is really small!! Smaller than me and has an ultimately surprisingly huge appetite. Despite eating so much over lunch, (she says she eats a lot daily too) she only weighs 32kg!!! OMG!! That’s like my weight in primary school la!!! HAHA, I’m not the shortest because she is shorter than me. Oook… I know I am being damn mean here, but I’m always the shortest among my friends, and I rarely meet people who are shorter than me. So… (:

 

 

So back to training. Is really a killer!! I have to memorize almost everything at a short span of 3 hours on all the skin care range! Thankfully it’s not a really tough job for me because I have some background knowledge on skin care when I was at IPSA. After a hearty lunch at Pastamania, it was the second round of fun torture. I said fun cause it’s really amazing to know the different techniques SHU uses, torture because having to grasp everything at such a short time. I never knew SHU cosmetic is really that good. If you haven’t try, you really should. And now I also finally know why sometimes my full timers complain it’s so stress. IT REALLY IS!

 

 

Tomorrow will be the official day I’m starting work at the counter. Wish me good luck that my counter manager is good and not mean like Agnes, my other retail manager. She look so fierce, always unsmiling, and talk like she damn yaya like that. Maybe I still don’t really know her so. Pretty excited! Shall get back reading my notes! ):

 

 

 

This sounds lame but I’m getting a ang moh name. Jac and B had the same suggestion, Renee. Jac says I got the ‘R’ face. LOL! Anyway, still thinking about it though. I know DOTS gang must be laughing la. Like I’m known as REN SHAN for all these years. Suddenly got ang moh name so weird. I also find it weird.

I’m having this fluttering feeling in my stomach. Makes me go to the toilet a couple of times! Ha!! Oook… I should just relax a bit, it’s just my first day of work, just treat it as a normal working day at IPSA. But I still can’t help feeling kan chiong la!

 

By the way I’ve got so much to say, but you know pictures tell a thousand words. Scroll down after 17^th March pictures if you dare. Don’t say I never warn you, it’s really gross.

 

Please read through the terms and conditions before you scroll down:

 

• Must be above the age of 16
• Do not scroll down if you are eating
• Do not scroll down if you just had a heavy meal
• DO NOT DO NOT SCROLL DOWN IF YOU FEAR BLOOD

 

 

 

17^th March

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

CAUTION!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

BEWARE!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

YOU VERY SURE

 ABOUT IT?!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

THERE

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

YOU

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

GO!!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Oh boy! I totally regret not applying sunblock on my arms before leaving the house. The sun was blazing and I’m sure I’ll be looking slightly tanner now as compared to the past few months. Though it’s only for a few hours, I get tanned easily.

 

Happy is an understatement for me until now when I just got a tiff with B. Met up with my precious for shopping. It’s always good to be around her because there’s always so much to talk about. Even while we are trying out clothes we can be laughing and gossiping. And I just found out we are so alike! Both of us are so distracted when it comes to eating. We won’t pay attention to the food or the person sitting in front of us but instead our eyes dart around at the slightest sound, looking and observing with curious eyes. And the funny part is our boyfriends share the same reaction and question.

 

 

Anyway, thanks dear for waiting patiently at the reception for me while I meet my supervisors, sign appointment letter and try out my uniforms. I really really appreciate that! (:

 

 

Totally love my new leggings!! Received a few compliments (: Shopping was fun and can only be fun when you have the money. Though my pay was not much but I fully utilize it and bought myself many things. (1 jumpsuit, 6 falsies, 1 dress, 1 leggings & a bagful of skin care worth $XXX that can last me close to half a year!) It really feels good to carry many shopping bags with you (as if you bought many things) but thinking about the load, I tell you, it can totally kill! My shoulders are aching like mad now!

 

 

By the way, Clinique called, surprisingly. They wanted to offer me higher than what I had expected similar to the basic I was offered at SHU. I was pretty shocked they actually sounded so insistent. But they were too late. Sigh! I just sign my appointment letter then they called. Apparently there was some miscommunication. The HR person did not inform me about my acceptance in Clinique but only said I was accepted by Estee. Ha! Anyway maybe it is fated, besides I’ve already sign my appointment letter so saying so much is redundant.

 

 

 

I hope my assumptions are wrong. I hope what we’ve discussed wouldn’t be a problem for now but somehow or another you made it feel it’s dawning near. I’m tired too but I balance things out. Knowing I won’t have the time once I take on the job, I’ve tried to set aside as much time for you as possible. Hope you see where I’m coming from but I guess not la huh. Your message tells me so.

 

 

 

P.S Wanna have a good laugh? Click on this link!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8TJ9emy-nr0&feature=related

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

To think that you consider yourself a faithful Christian, preaching the values of Christ to non-believers, but look at the things you do and say behind people’s back, it only show what kind of a person you are. I think I know why you attend church every Sunday, because you need to ask for forgiveness for the many lies, evil thoughts you have committed!

 

Come on la, I could have just clean my backside and not give a damn about who needs to work full shift and all the other nonsense after I leave. But because I got ‘liang xin’ and I’m not self-centered to only think about myself and not others, hence I requested to push the date till next Monday. And for goodness sake, I’ve already made THREE CHANGES to accommodate to your needs because I PROMISED to help you since you are on urgent leave.

 

Have you spare a thought for me how it will look on me to my new employer? So what if you work SO LITTLE morning shifts this month? Don’t you forget you owe me one favour!! I’m not trying to be picky here, but it’s not of my choice to want to work m shift if I didn’t had to go down to the office to sign the appointment letter tomorrow!

 

 

I would have let the matter rest if I didn’t know the nasty things you bitch to W about. Can’t believe I actually confronted you but I simply can’t stand all the rubbish you are giving. I hope you can wake up before you are condemned by all of us. In case you don’t know, they find it a relief that you resign.

SOMEBODY HELP ME PLEASE!!!

 

 

 

 

For the whole entire day I’ve been thinking which job should I take. I’m so busy thinking, calling up friends to ask for opinions till I didn’t know it was time to knock off from work. It was the very first time I felt so ‘busy’ since most of the times I would be staring into the thin air or doing my favourite thing – people watching. So I thought today would be like no other that I’ve even brought a book just in case I get too bored.

 

 

So I’ve heard all the comments to make my decision. But still, knowing me, being a DIFFICULT INDECISIVE person, I’ve yet to come up with a decision. SIGH!!

 

 

Suddenly all this is happening too soon that I wish time could slow down a bit. I suddenly miss the fun of sleeping late, waking late, hanging out with friends, lazily drag myself to Katong to meet B for lunch. And the thing I will really miss most is hanging out with my friends (DOTS). Bet I’m going to miss out so much fun with them because of work but I promise I will find time even if it’s that hard because I simply don’t want to regret missing out the fun at this age. So my first step will be taking ANNUAL LEAVE on May 13. (:

 

 

I still remember how life was like being a part timer. Lesser responsibility, though there are rules but it doesn’t applies so strictly to part timers. Back then I was a rule breaker. Known for messy hairdo, bright manicure hands, ‘sloppy looking’ outfit that don’t even resemble a beauty advisor and most importantly I need not care about doing stock take and the thousands of promotion tracking forms as well as monthly racking reports. But now, things have started to change drastically. I thought I was ready for it, but now I’m having second thoughts.

 

Did you see yourself stepping into the working society now?

 

 

 

 

I think I am going to have nightmares tonight.